I hope you get this "guest." Again you always underestimated how I felt about you. Time after time. With more elaboration in your last message, now I know who you are and I think about you more than I care to admit or in fact you yourself would even ever concede to. It's more convenient for you to write me off as a jerk because then you don't have to deal with ugliness and imperfection reflected in your affinity for me and vice versa. So you know I even google you from time to time. It wasn't just a game to me, you should know that it never was frivilous never was a game at all. And I didn't even have an idea until now who it was and I'm not bluffing. I KNOW who you are. I know you didn't write all of those guest writer comments but you know that I know which ones you did. Don't you think it's time though that we stopped the hot and cold, on again-off again correspondence and at least agreed to be good friends. You brought value to my life, great value and it would be a shame to let the past dictate the present or the future. I think that's the point of everything, I'm doing now, the point of my blog. Even here I admit somethings will never change and that weaknesses are there but I've always admitted my shortcomings and "limitations," and you knew then and you know now. Stop being cruel and wishy washyLOL:). We could both benefit from at least being civil again.